Ok this is ridiculous! Every day I say to myself - I HAVE to write even a little blog today (so much for rule number 3 or was it #2, its been so long now I forget!). Even tonight I sat on the couch at 7:30 and said to myself "I have 1 hr before private practice starts - its BLOG TIME!" And here I am writing the first paragraph at 8:15! Hopeless.
I have started a blog about three time since last I posted but every time I would re-read them with plans to finish them and post it I would delete the rubbish I had written! So I am just going to write this and post it, sorry if it is more rubbish!
I would like to know what horrible joke God thought he was playing on the world when he decided babies needed to be born all gummy. Then once their tired and cranky mums had painstakingly sorted them into a good routine, got them self settling and sleeping well (not through but close) He would THEN send them teeth to cut their gums and make them cry - and most upsetting of all it would destroy the hard work and we would be back to feeding bub to sleep each nap and waking several times a night! WHY WHOULD HE DO THAT TO US MUMS? Oh and poor Boy with his sore gums.
I am currently watching Oprah's interview with Presidant Obarma and I think he is a good leader. He obviously thinks more than the last guy - in fact I think he would be an intelligent person and an interesting one to have dinner with. I think he will do good things for America and maybe even our world, but more than all of this I am jealous of the relationship he has with his wife. They are obviously best friends and I don't think I have dated my best friend since I was 16. (Hence the single part of my description of myself I guess). I didn't even really like a lot about the two last people I seriously dated. My ex and I lived with for 2 years and even when things were as good as they got with us and I loved the fun we had and I thought I loved him I didnt even like about him, such as his values and the way he looked at people and teated them.
Mrs Obama just said you have to find someone who you trust and respect and how respects you back this seems so simple! Why is it so dam hard in reality? I think my biggest problem with the last years is I haven't respected myself enough - I thought I was so lucky to have anyone want me that I didnt really stop to decide if I wanted him back. But now I know if any man wants a chance with me he has a whole new scale to measure up to. He has to be good enough for Boy - and Boy only deserves the best!
WOW - i dont know where that little rant came from. Especially since I have no desire to get involved with anyone until Boy starts school. Or something like that anyway. Life is so busy now I could find the time even if I wanted to.
Well PP has started and my eyes are stinging so 'Im out!'
TTFN
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